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Which Way Forward?

Posted by saveliberty , 04 February 2012 · 600 views

I am pleased to see that my good friend, @Polly has resumed blogging. She has a very insightful post here, which is an excellent read.

I have been trying to think of what direction I would go now that the blog is working again, even better than ever!

Last year, I decided to write about my sickness and recovery in the form of a blog-book that I was thinking about publishing among friends. The website is here, and I stopped at Chapter 11. Some of my friends read it and I received good reviews and encouragement to continue.

I was going to keep writing, but at the time, my schedule became very busy. As time went on, I wondered about continuing for a few reasons. The first was that although the most dangerous time was past, there were still things to come that were, well not good. I didn't spend a lot of time thinking or even speaking about them because my focus was gratitude for surviving the danger period and also not to upset family and friends by discussing what was less than easy.

That brings to the second reason. Discussing the difficult times seems to make them a bigger deal than they were. Clearly, everything was survivable and dealable. Everything worked out in the end - do I really need to drag my friends and family down that road so that I can feel good about what I've written?

And that is the last reason. By writing about my sickness and recovery, do I focus too much on myself rather than interact with others? So many have gone through and are going through so much worse - what is the big deal? That I thank God every day for my sicknesses - yes I do. I do that because while the sickness itself was at times a challenge, I received so many blessings of love, friendship, prayers and the gift of a better relationship with God.

What's more, I was blessed with a much better job after I was well enough to work. I had been part of a layoff when I recovered, but within 3 months, I was working locally in a job I loved with people who appreciated me. The hiring manager found me. I was looking and applying aggressively, but was also praying daily for God's Help to find work. They hired me sight unseen, which was a huge gift as I was self conscious of my partial facial paralysis.

I still am self-conscious, but I am told that it's not very noticeable these days.

There I go; off on a tangent. Posted Image

So I don't know what I will or won't do with the recovery story. I will give it some thought, but right now, I am inclined to stop here, because in this one post, you get really what's most important: what most would see as bad things made way for good.

I wouldn't wish this on anyone else. God made each of us to be different; any other person who is sick is in need of our prayers and support.




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pollyannaish
Feb 04 2012 03:00 PM
Miss saveliberty...what a wonderful person you are. You do what you need to do tell your story. But I do want to tell you how your story has impacted me.

When times are tough we all go through things that, when they have past, seem much smaller than they did in the moment. That is a human reaction to the things that jump out in front of us in life are so big we can not possibly see past them.

Your story has helped me, because it is a beautiful story of determination and courage to face something you did not expect at the worst possible moment. It came with all kinds of fallout, and in the end personal joy and thanksgiving that are inspiration. We know things work together for good for them that love the Lord.

But the emotional struggles you faced, as well as the physical and financial ones, are just as important. There is nothing wrong with admitting that you felt self pity. I understand that! You are not alone. Do you know how much self-pity Mr. P and I felt after the garage burned down? The garage! No one was hurt, it was just stuff...but man, did we feel put upon. It was a pain. A pain we had to work through...from self pity to acceptance to appreciation for the things that came out of it.

It's a process we all share. You are beautiful inside and out. But you are also human. Like I said, do what you need to do...but don't be embarrassed to admit self-pity. If we all didn't wallow in that now and again...we would not be human and we would cease to feel.

And thank you for sharing! Yes, all people who are sick and in need require our prayers and support...and understanding and empathy. And that, my dear saveliberty, includes you. I just want you to know, that you got it. ;)
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saveliberty
Feb 04 2012 03:12 PM
Thank you, Miss Pollyannaish!

You are beautiful, inside and out. :wub:
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